- Wow, what a year for the BD; 4 magazine articles, a new baby, increased massive revenue for the designer gig, moved to LA, gave up the "too fast, too furious" Lancer (still vehicle-less thank goodness for the convenience of Hollywood), got juxed at work by some talentless nobody, got laid off (2 weeks before Christmas, thank you), turned down a job move to Seattle with NICE pay only to agree to start a new local Creative Director gig with small start up and sales percentage (sweet). However still unemployed, the kids gifts laid under an $85 live Christmas tree - a Broke Diva 'till the end.
Because I have not started the new job yet, I am so broke it ain't funny! I live for the 99.cent store! That has become my new home. In fact us Broke Diva's know this store all too well. It is the only store that you can spend 5 bucks on sanitary pads, lip gloss, socks, a box of teacher grade crayons and a bar of organic soybean chocolate! But this year is going to be the best. I feel it in my bones for everyone I know. And for all of you out there who feel like things cant get worse - well it does. It is not cute being broke with kids though. So I know the feeling of thinking things are going bad with major responsibilities hanging over the head. But I deeply believe that things have to get crazy before it gets calm. And things can get crazy. I mean unemployment denied crazy! Can you believe that? But We still have to find peace and time to celebrate the good things in life. We still have to learn from mistakes but we have to keep it movin'.
Some of you are doing quite well and enjoy your BD status at the moment - more power too you, hope your New Years Eve date went all out on you and your new dress. Some of you have finally got the "Single Ladies" dance down packed! Some of you are okay but looking for a change - a Barack Obama kind of change, some of you are really struggling and are stuck on stupid for some reason. Some of you Diva's are out of a job or taking a pay cut this year. It gets difficult trying to maintain your status and that can be hurtful and make you feel less worthy. There is something I like to call "Crazy before the Calm" Here is a tid-bit on how to achieve that calm finally.
Let me explain the power of Crazy before Calm with a story about my gigantor Doberman puppy, "Blackie Chigurh" (as in Anton Chigurh, the bad ass killer from No Country for Old Men).
Crazy: Just a few days before Christmas the hubby took the kids to pick up dinner and Blackie could not go. Now normally Blackie jumps at the window to see anyone off that leaves the house - normal dog behavior. But for some reason this night he was overly excited and really wanted to go with them. Blackie weighs about 50 lbs and stands up at around 5'9" on back legs. He was just turning 6 months at the time - a true puppy. However his size and over zealous activity catapulted his weight through our kitchen window. He clearly had no idea that his ramping and running around would send him to the hospital with a lacerated front femur. It was such a crazy thing. The sound of the glass shattering brought tears. I thought the absolute worse for our new puppy. I just knew Christmas was going to be a sad one. We Broke Diva's do not throw ourselves through a window but stressing out does have a way of making us want to hurl ourselves off a short bridge!
Calm: Blackie is now confined to the kids larger bathroom with ceramic tile that stays cool. This room is ideal for him to recover due to the cool flooring helps to keep infection from setting in. He has spent some time in there recuperating from his injury. Time spent to recover his mind, his body, his heart and his behavior (he seems to understand his situation and responds more positively to his training commands). Like Blackie, we all need time to recover ourselves emotionally, physically and mentally. We need time to heal - but we don't need to loose our spirit in the process. Blackie bucks and jumps and cry's at the door to come out. When we grant him the chance to come out - only for a bit so he does not re-injure his leg - he is that same rocket that went through the damn window! His injury hadn't broken his spirit at all. For him the only thing that is broke is the bank. He is still that happy ginormous pup that we all love. His situation has taught me that Broke doesn't mean broken. Once you understand that - you are well on your way to keeping it together. If you give yourself time to get calm and keep that same vitality that made you the diva you are, you can kick stress in the ass! So search far and wide for that massage clinic coupon at the local gym or cash in your holiday gift card to the nearest nuerologist or fortune teller and get healed.
Release.
I have not written a New Year's resolution. I think those things are no good. My mom has put "stop smoking" on her resolution list for the last 15 years. They don't work. I propose a TO DO LIST and on that list #1 should be CELEBRATE TODAY. When I get my first paycheck my #1 will be shopping. I cannot wait to help the economic crisis with my earnings. I have earned the right to shop. Too much crazyness went down the past few months and I am making a list of the places to go. I am torturing myself now by web-browsing or "on-line window shopping" to get me hyped up. But I will put a few coins in the savings 'cause I am a grown up Broke Diva who has seen the power of "Keep the change" from BofA and it is a wondrous power, indeed.
So pop open that teeny bottle of liquor you saved from your holiday flight, smoke sumthin' good, enjoy your family and live life knowing that things will get better. There are so many things to be grateful for, like breath for instance. Think positive thoughts always and great things will happen. And lay up - unemployment has been extended to a whole full year! So tell the boyfriend to relax and use this year to define you and go after what you want.
Blackie's release date is the week I start my new job. I cant wait to see him run around again. I cant wait to get back to the goal of taking over the world. The new window is now double paned.
Celebrate today Diva, celebrate everyday.
HOW DID YOU CELEBRATE THE COMING YEAR? LET ME KNOW...
Thursday, January 8, 2009
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